i am like a Sandcastle

i'm a normal person. i have a lot of aspirations - millions. but i'm so much like a sandcastle too. i'm easily broken to millions.

TV shows are so misleading. they always show the happy side of things. ALWAYS. and even if they do show a tragic story, there's always that comforting fact/thought/person who helps the leading character out of misery.

no wonder TV shows are just TV shows.

one very exploited TV show topic for example is how parents should support their children especially during explorations of their children's capabilities. and they should. really. for one, because no one ever knows his greatness in a blink of an eye. and if children are left to discover the world by themselves, either they stumble upon their graves early or find their pot gold almost always too late to be as much advantageous as it could have been.

and it's sad really. especially here in the Philippines. Filipinos have a lot of skills. the only thing hindering them from soaring the skies is their social status. MONEY. checking priorities, how could any parent choose music class over FOOD?

i'm just very hurt. that's all. i don't know if my parents understand the meaning of the sentence, "not supporting is not discouraging per se, but it is most definitely not the same as supporting."

i love doing many things. everything. i love buying books and reading them. i love writing and drawing. i love making stories of fantasy and romance. i love singing and dancing. i love solving puzzles. i love learning languages. i love observing people. i love designing houses. i love taking care of people. i love doing errands. i love listening. i love speaking. i love thinking. i love praying. i love walking and running. i love making music. i love seeing beauty.

but i just don't know if i'm allowed to. if i should. or if it's just a waste of time. money. effort.

is it?

everytime you send me down,
you send me down
crashing.
and i die.