me Sorry... why?

I accepted the offer. :D I accepted the offer... :O I ACCEPTED THE OFFER! xD

Forgive me if I had to repeat that a couple of times. :P I'm still shocked at what I did! It was a huge decision to make. But thankfully, I chose for it. Hopefully, thankfully. Haha.


Someone sent me a text message yesterday afternoon. It was just a simple Hi thing. :D But... It made me realize the that someone if slowly becoming a special someone. I wonder how I could tell that someone that. :O Haha!


Sad face. Still confused face.


I talked to one of my friends yesterday. She was having a hard time. An extremely hard time. She was even considering giving up. Shifting her course. Drastic measures jsut to escape her problems. I told her not to. That that's the worst thing she could do. That running won't solve the problem. I told her she had to be strong for herself. That no one would stand up for her besides her. That she needed to voice out her problems. That she needed to pray. That she needed to stop and think.

I'm not sure what she will do now. I told her to go home and rest first. Then decide. Hopefully I was able to convince her to fight.


God, You are my Helper. In everything. Thank You for giving me an opportunity to talk to my friend that way. Thank You because You gave me the words to tell her. Thank You because I know You won't leave her on her own. :3
Lord, even before, I have thought that someone is trying to hurt me. Backstab. Or whatnot. I have never confirmed that. But the feeling is intermittent. Right now, I feel it. Is my feeling in touch with reality? I don't know. But God... If I have hurt someone, please let me know. So that I can say sorry to them. If someone wants to hurt me, then let Your will be done.
I cherish every moment I have with You. I cherish every moment I have with my friends. I cherish every moment I have with my family. I cherish every moment I have with myself.

Thank You Jesus for saving me from my sin. :)


Love,awe,andthankfullness,
lara

choices and Right choices

Dear God,

I miss You! I feel like it's been so long since I last had a very long conversation with You... and I'm very sorry. I'm sorry because I didn't give You any time, because I haven't placed You as my top Priority. And I'm terribly sorry... because I come to You now with a problem that I have been struggling with for a long time now. I'm sorry that I'm coming to You only after that long time... I should have run to You in the first place. I should have ran and stayed in You Arms for as long as I needed. I kept ignoring my problem thinking that You would take care of it for me. I overlooked the fact that I HAVE to do MY part as well. I'm sorry, Father. And I thank You... because now that I'm ready... You're here to listen. :)

Dear Lord, I talked to my class adviser today. I told her all about my problems... with my grades, priorities, and extra-curriculars. And she helped me a lot. And I thank You for her. :) She told me that I needn't pressure myself this hard. And that the pressure will make me look old. It will make me become "baliw" too, she says. But the only solution tom y problem she says... will be found only by me. I must reflect on the matter... and I must choose.

And that I will.

Father, I am faced with 2 options: to stay as a class president or to resign and become a normal college student. But those two options are great ones. If only I could switch from one mode to the other at my discretion... but life is not that forgiving. Lord, I thank You for finally making me realize that I really do need to choose one and only one. I cannot have the best of both worlds. I thank You for my mother and adviser who have so lovingly guided me thus far. I thank You, Lord, for making all these things possible. But, dear God, I do not know what to choose. I surrender to that fact, Lord. I do not know what to choose.

I love being class president. It gives me fulfillment and satisfaction knowing that I can be a leader to my friends. That I can serve even if I'm only a mere student. But, my grades are suffering, Lord. Oh, but I do not know if my grades are low because of my presidency or plainly because I really do deserve low grades. But, Lord, it saddens me to think that maybe, just maybe, I could have raised my grades one or two points higher if I studied a little longer or a little better.

And so, my petition, Lord God. I beg of You. Please help me find the answer to my query. Lord, please... I resign to You, God. For, now I realize that there is no end to this problem besides the end found in You. Lord, I realize that I cannot run. I cannot hide. I cannot ignore the fact that I am indeed struggling.

The past opportunity You gave me to run in the student council elections was amazing, Lord. But it was also an eye-opener. Lord, just a while ago, I realized that the way You made all the alumni drop me from the slate was a blessing. 101% a blessing, God. That experience made me realize that I am not ready for all this. That I am taking this too far. That I am sacrificing everything for something small. That I am destroying my life... my life with You. And, again, that I have to choose.

Lord, thank You. Because I can rest in You. Thank You because I don't have to run very far to find You. Thank You.

I'm giving it a few days. Until the end of the week probably. Please help me decide, Lord. Whether I will accept another Class Presidency. Or better yet, the position of Level Rep next year.

Thank You, Lord. I love You so much!

Praises and glory to You, Lord... :3
Lara:)